(typed as found written, etc):
The night freeze pinched
a few more leaves from
They’re only now realizing it
as they drop down across long shadows and sunshine
I could try to catch one
as it dropped
But it’s nice here indoors
and my tea is still hot
I dreamed and I dreamed
(I was stroking a shabby grey cat and a long haired rabbit)
and my house was sparkling clean
then friends came by and had
while I ate brownies and
licked the melted chocolate from my fingers.
(I could see you watching me from the corner of my eye)
and everything was soft and clean
and friendly and delirious
and it started to rain
so I opened a window
to let some of it in
and everyone smiled.
I’m not smart enough to dislike everything–
to find out what’s wrong with everything.
When do you run for your life
and when do you wait?
I hope I never forget the
cold smile she gave
me in passing. I hope I
never forget it.
Shame is a great motivator.
If I were to let all my actions pass
before her eyes, very few would
find approval – most condemnation
some deserve it.
I can tolerate not being tolerated
for personality sake, but when she is
right and I am wrong
Then let me never forget her cold smile
if it works some good in me.